hello hello. i've tried to post several times in the last 2 weeks and each time something happens.--so here i am.

just got back from watching 'underworld:evolution' i have to say-the first one was better. of course there are all those sweet effects in the second one and kate is unbelievable, which is to be expected. but there's just something about the first one. maybe more magical.

i wore my 'i'm not interested in money, i just want to be wonderful'-m. monroe shirt today. i love it-it's a bit faded and shrunk perfectly to fit.

my niece is starting to stretch-out her strong legs and stand on my lap---and says 'dada'. she growls instead of goos, just like her auntie!

i'm contending with an interesting feeling this evening-have you ever had someone in your life that when you spend time with them the world (and all it's required tasks) become a foggy haze? i find myself walking & talking & experiencing...hanging on our next words---the most important thing being right now. i don't know if it's love, sounds more like infatuation. either way-i have a love/hate relationship with this experience.

it lends itself to undone work, messy bathrooms, unkempt life, in general. you should see my car. it looks like a homeless woman who likes to read college-level biology books lives in there.

and at some point, when you leave the presence of this person, you have to come up out of this moronic stupor & tend to 'things'---and i'm a bit lazy as it is, so this part is hard.

how do people fall in love neatly? it's always baffled me--or is that the sign of infatuation? love=clean sink ~ infatuation=soiled toilet.

anyway, so after the movie i went wondering around & walked into a few stores. one of them the 'fossil' store. very cute workers there tonight. shane & wes. fun to talk to-we talked of the goriness of uw 2. looked at watches for a friend, chatting it up with the both of them-giving them crap for a cropped jacket that cost SEVENTY-FIVE DOLLARS. they agreed it was ridiculous. i told them thanks & left.

so i then started to leave the mall, putting back on my down vest, zipping it up, struttin my new(used) red leather heals...and behind me i hear, 'hey,' 'hey you,' i turn around. it was shane, from fossil. right there behind me in front of 'pizza villa'. this shane kid is beautiful. very noticeable. simple-but different. we both just kinda stood there for a second. immediately i felt like i was in a movie.

uuhhh..

he says, 'so what do you do for a job?' i first just kinda stood there staring @ him, smiling-wondering WHERE this could possibly go. and he goes, 'well if you're ever looking for a part-time job, let us know, you've got a great personality.' and truthfully i told him i would keep it in mind (it's smart to always keep your options open;) 'so yeah,' he says, 'come on in & fill-out an app if you get a chance, we're looking for good people.' and as he said this he started walking backwards and just barely escaped running into one of those stupid kids cars that are shaped like, well, a car, red & obnoxious & frankly a hazard. the man could have been hurt!!!

so i motioned for him to look behind him & basically saved his life. or at least a bad head injury. anyway, i digress. shane had a alterna brown cap on, wore it slightly to the side & maybe is the only guy i've ever seen pull it off really well-like he literally just put it on & didn't look in the mirror. red simple cowboy shirt and jeans. that's it. but his smile & his laugh & the fact that he said 'crap' about something, like 'that's a bunch of crap.' it was cute.

so that made me feel good. i have these spurts of confidence that pop-up and suprise me...i wish i could plan it more. think it happens when i'm happy. or infatuated.

i thoroughly enjoy the reality show 'project runway'. i like shows that reveal real talent. these people are amazing to watch. and the stuff they make--get out!

i just got done with my first week of school--round 2. what an exhilarating ride. chemistry and anatomy & physiology--a psych course to fill some requirements for the physical therapy program i'm looking into.

God's teaching me about trust & stress & that with the former, the later fades a little more each day. a good friend of mine reminded me of this today.

i never had any use for a person who spelled a word only one way. -emerson
--my chem teacher reminded us of this when he spelled a word wrong on the chalkboard.

i laugh out loud in class when the teacher says something funny. i'm on average 4 years older than most all the other students. i'm over not looking cool. i'd rather agree with the 'old guy up front.' takes a few years to realize that he's the cool one. and a wealth of knowledge.

today i was in barnes & noble looking at books on baby food recipes (growing increasingly interested in baby things) and as i was sitting there perusing this book, one of the b&n book-nerds, standing about 10 feet from me, coughed & ended up farting really loudly.

i couldn't believe it, it was so loud, and i was the only one who heard it. i laughed, under my breath, and then i felt bad cuz he was so nerdy.

i spent part of the afternoon looking at kitchen do-dads at a local kitchen supply store...that place is my personal candy store. i should know better than going in there. it's amazing i escaped without buying SOMETHING, even just a fancy napkin or a high-quality ramekin or that vegetable slicer that i NEED.

there is this bread that a local restaurant makes--and i will figure out how to make it at home. it's some sort of focasia bread, soaked in garlic butter and coated with parmesan cheese and then seared in a skillet or on a grill. literally melts in your mouth. i dreamed about it lastnight. i made sure i had some today.

i think hyde is the sexiest one on 'that 70's show'.

i'm looking for one of those water warmers that all the asians and sanfransiconians i know own. perfect for hot tea at a drop of a hat. i looked on amazon.com and they're almost all $100...wanna donate to the cause? ;)

going to a belated company new year's party tomorrow night with a friend. he manages to wait about THREE weeks to tell me that it's 'black-tie optional'. now mind you, if i was a wealthy socialite or even liked having a choice of fancy dresses, then this would not be a problem. but this is not the case. and the party is tomorrow night. ok men-this is what we're talking about when we use the statement, 'use your brain' or 'think of someone else for a chance'. trust me, i despise the fact that i have to think more about what i wear then men just as much as you do. this is just a warning.

and it's even more annoying that i'm going to a nice party with a guy that i don't want to be with while simultaneously still attracted to the guy that's no good for me. why does it have to be like this? and when will the man with the looks AND the heart show up? just wondering.

i don't care for caribou coffee's coffee but i love thier chocolate chunk cookie. i also like that they have a drive-thru. i don't even have to get out of my car for a cookie that probably has at least 1000 calories. awesome for my 'healthy lifestyle'.

i love comedy central. maybe i shouldn't. but i'm not sure there is anything better than stand-up comedy.

lots of ladies in my life are venturing into new beginnings:

chanty~entering her second year in milawe, s. africa with peace corp
liz~venturing to alaska to gut some fish for good cash
jessica~prayerfully trying to conceive a second baby
adriel~starting a new job that Lord willing will allow her to break into her desired career
me~class starts on monday! i'm taking bio classes--more on the 'plan' later

this may be the first year that a new year in fact brings with it a whole bunch of new things. i like it.

got 'my morning jacket' album for christmas. thanks wade~!!

had breakfast with my mommy this morning-we shared tears while talking of our hearts to see people well/healed/restored/thriving. i hope that this journey of education will allow me to do that more often on a physical level. and jesus working through me!!! holy smokes!! watch out!!

thanks mom for listening & encouraging me. and reminding me that my heart for healing & my passion for others is a good thing-and a gift. you keep me going.