pretty much the only good thing goin on right now

an email to a friend, my thoughts:

this morning has been wonderful so far for me. i was supposed to meet with a friend, steph (the one who had the wine party) this morning. 6:30. seems as though she slept in ;) i sat up @ freidrich's on 86th, reading & writing instead. eating my favorite pecan roll.

it's amazing how our God works. it's been several days since i've gotten up (ya know, the laziness & depression)...pressing snooze, sleeping till the last minute. sacraficing my time with God...'i'll do it later'. i hardly EVER do it later.

i think this 'plan' for steph & i to meet was botched so He & i could hang out with eachother.

so of course He totally ravaged my heart. He breathed new life & (thanks to my great worship cd & the book of John) a veil, of sorts, has been lifted.

i was reminded that even the Son of God did nothing on His own initiative...but what His father told him to. He also made sure we knew that He did not come to save us on His own...but as a response to His Father's request. the perfect Son of Man does nothing His dad doesn't tell Him to.

also, that Satan is the Father of lies. nothing that comes from His being is true.

He was a murderer from birth...
thinking about what he's trying to kill right now.

as i was driving on the freeway towards downtown, listenin' to my waterdeep, singing along...'how greeeaaaat, how hiiiigh, how deeeeeep, how wiiiiide, is your love'...
these words came to mind;

what if my worship alone is the catalyst for thier healing and salvation?

i think He's teaching me that there is a supernatural power in just me, alone, praising Him. i sensed (as i was driving) that the declaration of His being, His power, His love & glory, that the hearts of those around me in their cars on their way to their jobs were sensing Him. either profoundly or just slightly...
i heard Him say that 'this, right now, you, just loving me, is enough'

i remember the days when He wasn't so obvious to me, but that there were moments He seemed more real.
could He have me partnering in stranger's new lives?