today i am aware, moreso than i have been in a long time, of how needy i am.
i've got some new friends in my life these days and as gracious as they are with their time & hearts, i still feel like i'm always wanting more.

i figure that i love to spend so much time with them because they remind me of all my dearest friends along the journey----all the ones who do not live here & share my daily life with. i see them as an answer to prayer, but there are moments when my insecurity says they see me as a charity case.

is insecurity a sin? it makes me feel like an addict.

today i finished my cat dissection. absolutely enthralling. but the smell was slightly unbearable this time around. couldn't take too much slicing of veins, arteries or fatty tissue.

i think i need a night out. with dancing, definitely.

why is it that i can't seem to concentrate lately? and the two things that have got me distracted are 1) how to get to see my friends in south carolina and 2) marriage. i'm hitting the place where i feel i'm ready for that best friend and i to meet & get on with life. get on with our ministry together, as a team. i really am so envious of those that are married & can do that often. i want that so bad. my new friends have reminded me that this purpose is the most exciting & rewarding one.