so i'm now officially 'out on my own'. (not really-no one is an island)
and sometimes it's quite lonely, sometimes it's really exciting. i like that i have my own bathroom off my bedroom (no worries of inappropriateness).

i cried a bit the other night cuz my roommate wasn't home when i got home.
i don't like returning to an empty apartment more times than not.
but i called my best friend in california. she always knows exactly what to say to make it better. and a lot of the time it's not what i thought i needed. she's coming to see me in may--i plan to parade her around.

had some good food & beer & nice conversation lastnight at 'el bait shop'. bazaar name but a tremendous selection of beer (my own indecisive nightmare) 'UUHH..I'LL TAKE ONE OF EACH!'

been spending time lately with a friend whose defenses are coming down. he smiles and laughs more. makes me want to hug him. he listens and asks questions. he chooses to be good to people. i'm finding it easier to rest in our friendship. i really didn't think that prayer and unconditional love were as powerful as i know them to be now. (his true self is being revealed)

i'm so thankful for my sister adriel and my dad today. they're both so different from me--and sometimes we don't get eachother, but i feel like them in my life has filled me with confidence & appreciation for our differences. and there is this gentleness that they've always used with me. loving me despite my eccentric ways & my naive arrogance. they're 2 of the smartest people i know and both so patient.

i think i want to spend my honeymoon in san francisco. for the food alone.
if you have not had dim sum late sunday morning you have not lived.
(my husband will get it)