crossroads

have you ever tried to 'figure out' your life only to be slapped in the face with what might actually be the path you were meant to go down? this i have done often. always thinking, alway scheeming. always planning something-only to be shown i was off-even just a bit. part of me thinks it's my nature, which in a way i feel strongly it is, as i have felt this way for as long as i've been alive.

then part of me thinks it's my flesh obsessed with 'the other side' the 'grass is greener'. this i'm sorting out with God.

but anyhoo just when i start to get all settled-down here in the DSM, i start to figure out my budget, how i'm going to strategize getting rid of my debt, how i'm going to get healthy, got some really righteous people to hang with, got myself a new ride, got a job that pays well, yada, yada, i get flipped upside-down with the possibility to pursue my dream.

that is:

working with college-aged folks at a campus ministry at a school in a town named columbia, south carolina.

now whether or not i'm even the most perfect fit for the job is still to be decided. what's also to be decided is if i want to leave my good paying job, for ministry wages, my plan to reduce my debt, my good friends, my family, my comfort. you get the picture.

so what would you do? would you take that leap? what would you pray for? i've prayed for all the different sides and now i'm prayed-out. thought that wasn't possible, but i think i might be, even for just a little while.

so is this offer an answer to my heart's prayer or is it a exit in the wrong direction, disguised as something i've been waiting so long for?