i'm in a total funk tonight.
i feel like my confidence is being tested.
for so long i've just been 'confident'...well-liked...

but i'm starting to think that it's been a show.
it's been easy all these years cuz i've surrounded myself with people that agree with me. (at least my friends)
what the hell do you do when you find yourself falling in love with someone who will call you out?
someone who isn't fooled by the grin and nod?

i say & most of the time believe that a healthy lifestyle is good.
i am addicted to mcdonalds ice cream cones and kettle chips.

i say i love to workout & feel my body get strong.
i have not worked-out in over a month & i'm determined (today) to find a way to delay it even longer.

i say i want to know the Word.
i have a great oppurtunity to do so with good friends of mine & i continue to put it off.

i say that i value communication and listening skills.
i have the hardest time hearing people out & being misunderstood.

I CANNOT RUN AWAY FROM IT WITH HIM & IT FREAKS ME OUT.
(he has no idea) but i'm forced to shut my mouth and DO the things i have always talked about.

i'll let you know how it goes.