His grace said to me," Look, look at my face. Let's be in communion together. Let me erase all those lies you are owning as truths. Let me put fire in your veins and a pep in your step and purity in your thoughts and love in your heart and remind you of what i want you to be."

a friend of mine wrote this in her blog the other day. she's one of those refreshing types, never trying too hard but unafraid to be present, say things that may make others feel uncomfortable. i hate thinking about what others are thinking about.

i took chewy, the dog i am currently sitting, for a walk through the neighborhood this morning. training him to walk beside me and not mark on every single bush and tree along the way. i think both my shoulders are slowly being ripped apart.

so many neighbors with over-flowing gardens, dainty fences and cool, comforting porches. there is this one house i passed, maybe 800 or 900 square feet (tiny) and surrounded by flowers and fountains and fencing. i got just a tiny bit jealous. i want to wake up and drink coffee on their porch and have people over for dinner, having wine and candles and conversation outside.

worked on my 'dream book' yesterday. j. came and met me, we conjured-up ideas for an entertainment center (or what he called an endertaynment center) a puzzle-piece rug and cupboard doors & windows that would open like the iris of an eye. i love the way his mind works.

mmmm 70 degree days. today is one of them. i will spend it mostly outside.